It's funny, when I look back over my year, no matter how much happens over the summer it never seems to go by fast until I'm forced to leave because doomsday will occur. [For those of you who live in a hole concerning my life doomsday is school...yuck]. The good thing is I only have one semester of school left and then if the Lord provides a job in January I will start working, otherwise I'll student teach somewhere...personally I'd love to skip the whole student teaching part, but who knows what the Lord has planned 6 months from now...if only one of you would speak up and say "I do!" haha.
Well, it's been 2 weeks since I've started my internship. This one is just as different as last summer was or the summer before that. I've never done the same thing twice or been in the same type of environment twice for an internship and I'm on my third one. It's a bigger church than last summer, but not near as big as 2007. A different group of people I'm working with...for instance there is no pastor, and I'm the youth director so there's no youth pastor...interesting Lord. The other thing is I'm working with a group of parents that run the youth and that my friends would be the only frustrating part of this job.
I love it! [as usual]. I love the youth! [typical]. The students are amazing!! I don't have a youth room [haven't had one yet]. And I'm not allowed to decorate much [same old, same old]. But it's simple enough to work with what I have. I got to plan out the entire summer which wasn't that difficult. I am getting to use my design skills again! [the Lord has blessed me every summer, by allowing me to grow in this skill].
Below is first the new youth group name/logo that I designed:
Next, this is the front of the summer t-shirt that my good friend Amber Doggett designed and I put my twist on:
The only hard part are the fluxuating numbers...
I had 13 students Sunday night. Which was smaller than the amount on the roster but it was a good amount. I am praying for it to grow as interest grows, because I see in the church there is a larger amount of youth that do not come to evening activities concerning the youth. The problem is if it grows, I don't know if I'll be able to handle it! It'd be like having a high school PE class...the only difference is they don't have to participate and I haven't taken the class on how to deal with high school when it comes to PE yet!!! I take that in the fall!!! eeek!!!
I'm afraid of having too many people and having a game prepared that is for a small amount of people. I'm afraid of not having the space to play the game. I'm afraid of the game ending too quickly and then I'm scrambling to fill in the space!!
When I spoke Sunday night I was hoping to go for at least 20 minutes and I made it 16...not bad but not what I wanted. The youth spoke some, but it wasn't as interactive as I'd have liked and having the parents sitting in there was kind of nerve wracking because I honestly have no clue what they thought. What if they thought it was shallow??? What if they thought I got off topic too much?? I have no idea what they thought except for one. Mr. Rodgers said it was a great message (don't laugh...that's really his name!).
Lord, use me in ways I cannot imagine. In Your divine plan may I walk without worry. The stress in the back of my mind, please replace with peace. As You lead, I will follow. Help me never to step in front of You and try to fix my fears. You placed me here and I trust You...although I'm not too fond of the stretching from speaking every week...it's quite uncomfortable. I love you Lord! In Jesus' name.
I guess I should go to sleep now...tomorrow night I lead the first Wed. night Bible study and hangout...it should be low key...except for the fact that I have to LEAD again...
May I remind you that is NOT my strong suit...unless I can stand BEHIND the keyboard and sing and play :)
-the incredibly uncomfortable, vulnerable Realist
P.S.
I've almost finished 1 book on my summer reading list!!! And I'm halfway through another one, imagine that!! haha
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