I am NOT the same.

A short discussion of high school just finished. I was saying how I wouldn't last teaching at my high school because I'm not afraid to make waves. He said, "you weren't afraid to make waves then either." With a tone that spoke of a lack of change. I looked him directly in the eye and said "I've changed since high school. I'm NOT the same as I was then." He looked back at me with this bewildered look and said one word..."How?!?"

You know it's sad when blood doesn't even see a change. That last statement he made pierced my heart. Inside I'm screaming WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVEN'T CHANGED???? YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT??? YOU DON'T SEE ANY GROWTH? YOU DON'T SEE ANY IMPROVEMENT???

...am I really the same person to you? NOTHING has changed?

I look back on high school in disgust. I have worked my entire college career to change the image I had set in high school, because even though I first walked on to a new campus I walked on with the same old self. And after a week there I knew something had to change because I didn't like who I was.

Do you really think that I haven't changed one ounce since high school? I look at myself and think how could you NOT see a change in me?

My self-confidence has dropped to zero.