The perfect life is supposed to be purpose driven...right?
So what if you don't know your purpose?
Or what if your dreams are different than your God given purpose?
What if you have many dreams that all seem like great ideas but the path you have to follow is only leading you away?
What if you have many similar dreams that could perhaps be your purpose but right now nothing makes sense? Or how about when you wake up in the morning for class and you're not even sure why you're going. There's no sense of adventure...the most adventure you get is when you dream at night...and you have no control over those dreams. The only dreams you have control over are the daydreams...those are the one's that make sense...because you created them. You choose what happens. You are in control...so of course it all makes sense to you.
Everyone tells you to dream...and dream BIG... but in the end...if your dreams aren't logical and hold a way that makes your future look bright...then you will get told to let go of your dreams and live in reality. To me... reality sucks. There is no dreaming in reality. There are hard facts and hard decisions and not much security at all.
When I find new songs that I think are lyrically speaking directly about me or music that is insane...I put the song on repeat. You can ask anyone that knows me well or has been around me on one of those days. When I say the song goes on repeat...I mean it plays over and over until I'm forced to leave for reasons. Jeff Deyo has written a new song titled "Unveil" and it says what I want to say PLUS the intro is incredible. It's mystifying yet it rocks out beautifully...all in the same intro. Ahhhh, the sense of an on fire worship experience is breathed in through the intro and exhaled in the verse. It is mind blowing yet soothing.
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I want to touch the world through music... I have so many different opinions being spoken in my ears...constantly. It never stops, there is never a moment to take one person's opinion and run with it. I am a thinker and a decision maker...but when I want to make a big decision I take the controversial ideas that are being brought up by different people and I put the two ideas against themselves...
What do you do when you have ADULTS on both sides telling you two different things?!?!?!? Especially when all of these individuals are highly influential people in my life.
-you'll find your future mate at Liberty -never let go of your dreams -live in reality -pursue your heart -think logically -take a chance -how will you support yourself -there is the right guy out there for you -be rational -after college the fun ends -the possibilities are endless -you can't make money with that major
...and then there are those who you hold their opinion extremely high...and they won't even answer your questions.
Where do you find yourself standing at this exact moment? What are your thoughts about life? Your future is supposedly held by you...in your hands...no one can ever throw their future out the window unless they cut themselves short of even trying by ending their own life...or was that their future?
I do know one thing...we were here to make God look good. The question is...how?
2 comments:
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you're such a good writer and thinker.
Just remember, when it comes down to the bottom line, it doesn't matter what other people think is the right path for you. In the end it's solely between you and god.
Also, don't let anyone talk you out of anything that is in your heart. Especially about something like money or because it seems impossible. Anything with God is possible and he will always provide.
(I know you already know this, and I know I'm 16 talking to a college kid, but I felt like I needed to write it anyways.)
But, I really like this one, I really do! Its been on my mind too.
Ps. Revolution!! nuff said
I relate to this.
You probably have no idea who I am. I go to c3 and I'm Joe's girlfriend. You and I met at wet n wild and saw each other sometimes at church. I didn't go to camp or spend the summer with epic because I was either in Mexico or Alaska. Which brings me to why I relate to this;
Everything I am comes alive when I do international missions work. Even missions work here. But I don't necessarily feel like I'm supposed to do the traditional missionary things. I need to have jobs that give me the time to learn people and learn culture, and to do life with people. I want less time focused on an office job or a career and more time on individuals and their cultures.
I'm not going to care how lame of a job I get if it means I get to hang out with locals. If it means I get to chill with them at church and in the market and wherever they do every day things. Money doesn't matter. And a lot of people oppose it, because it sounds like I'm throwing myself away.
So, thanks for this post.
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