''No'' is not hard to say. It comes naturally to every baby, I don't know why it becomes so hard to say once people become adults.

At the UF vs. FSU game! It's great to be a Florida Gator!! :)

People always say it's the thought that counts...think harder.

Thanksgiving

The end of the semester is coming, and for that I am thankful.

I get to spend Wed-Sat. in Florida for Thanksgiving and the UF vs. FSU game, and for that I am thankful.

I'm thankful for many things. The girls in the office, my department friends, the fact that next semester I finally get to be in charge and teach. I wish it would come sooner but I must use my time wisely.

I have a 3 page paper, an 8 page paper, and a skill analysis project due when I get back...and I should be working on that but I just cannot find the motivation or the words to place in the papers and I just don't feel like analyzing a basketball free throw.

If I can finish that hopefully my grades will be alright and I will at least pass all of my classes.

I firmly believe if I can do that I'm good to go.

It's my goal to put together unit plans for most sports while I am on Christmas break so that I can be prepared for when I start teaching. Hopefully I can use some that department friends have put together and place them with my own. I want to stay ahead and on top of things so that everything is basically planned out.

My plan is to have a binder with the sports unit plans in it, a binder with the typed up innovative games, and possibly a binder with other various activities or games. All of the articles I've gathered from Dr. Farver I plan to keep in a binder as well as have a separate binder for elementary than I do for high school.

I need to start making a wishlist of the equipment I like that I'll probably have to buy because the places I've been for my practicums have next to nothing when it comes to equipment and as much as I like to make things I like having the authentic thing better.

The real world is coming and I can almost smell it and I'm eager for it! So eager it is hard to focus on what still must be done now...

Order my steps Lord as I cannot see into the future but You already know where I'll be [boy am I thankful for that!].

> the Realist

Be Honest From The Start

I'm a straight shooter.

Don't lead me on. Don't flirt with me thinking it's harmless. Don't spend an entire semester making me think you're into me and then tell me to guard my heart because you're not interested in a relationship.

TRUE STORY.

I had a blast this weekend as I went with a few classmates and a professor to teach some dances at the VAHPERD Convention. We had so much fun as you can see by the pictures below.

Above are a few of my classmates that taught with me. Below are me and my friend Steph on Virginia Beach :)

That last picture is me and a classmate aka douche bag.

Short version: once in a lifetime amazing trip with some amazing people.

Honestly it's not worth repeating everything that happened. My walls and defenses are once again on high security. No he didn't hurt me because I didn't let him, but I did let him in slightly. Ugh, stupid boys. Excuses, excuses.

Like I said earlier I'm a straight forward. I don't put effort into something just for the heck of it. It's because I want it to go somewhere. I want things to happen. Nothing I do is just because I wanted to be spontaneous. That's not in my personality. Everything is perfectly planned out even seemingly spontaneous things have been well thought through. Geez dude, please remember that your subtle seemingly "harmless" actions is considered leading someone on by the rest of humankind.

"You're hot then you're cold,

you're yes then you're no,

you're in then you're out,

you're up then you're down,

you're wrong when it's right,

it's black and it's white..." -Katy Perry

> frustrated Realist

Another "one of those weeks"

Things have been overwhelming lately. It's been "one of those weeks" for a couple weeks now. The cool thing is if I can just make it to Thursday I will be good to go.

I failed this last test in the class I'm not doing well in. I am still hanging on with a C but it's borderline and I would prefer to bring it up from a 71 to at least a 78 so I don't have to sweat as much. I got a tutor...I feel stupid because of it but there's no other way I can manage to make a good grade on this last test without it.

Now on to the good stuff that has been keeping me looking forward to this next weekend for so long. Well Thursday is the Health Fair at Big Island Elementary School. All of my buddies in my health class will be doing skits and dressing up crazy and we'll be missing all of school that day. It's going to be so much fun!

Even better than that is this next weekend. I get to spend Friday night and Saturday in Virginia Beach with a very cute boy and some other people in my department. We are going to the 2009 VAHPHERD Conference where we will be teaching a few of the dances we have learned in Tumbling and Rhythmic Movement class this semester. It's FULLY paid for!!! It's gonna be so much fun and I'm going to get to hang out with cute boy and hopefully he'll make a move or at least I can find out more information about him ;) We'll see.

Besides that homework never stops, projects are now becoming due, I never get a break from having to teach in class (which isn't that bad except I'm tired of being on edge because teaching is for a grade always). I need a break desperately but even the first two days of Thanksgiving break I'll be working at my practicum.

I need a release and I really hope this weekend trip gives me that. Pictures will come and then you can finally get a glimpse of him ;)

> The I Need Sleep REAList

P.S. This is a Chris and Conrad song (They're from my hometown Lakeland, FL)